SONG FOR THE SOUL
VOICES/ Emaan & Vibeztheprod
"I pushed and dealt my cards
Told me don’t run too far
Big talk from you sitting in the dark
Come back when I make my mark"
If you've ever wondered what it's like to be a musician, here's a little insight. You have to be confident. You have to be approachable but not overbearing. You have to be strategic and plan ahead but not get too caught up in the details or else your projects will never EVER get released. You have to think about the market and how you fit in but also be true to yourself and your own artistry. You have to be trendy but original. You have to post on Social Media but not be too vain. You have to keep your audience updated but not flood their timelines and feeds. You have to take audience criticism seriously but also with a grain of salt, even if it's the most hurtful thing you could hear. You have to be an amazing player and/or writer but not a show off. This is all to say... you have to be...EXHAUSTED.
BUT FIRST! Let's talk about the brand new music from Emaan and Vibeztheprod. I chose this piece because of how well done the production is but also how inspired and connected I feel to Emaan's words and melodies. The mix of her ethereal voice and the touch of autotune creates a post-modern intensity with a subject related to anyone who presents their art or creativity in a public space. What I love about these lyrics is that it truly captures the doubt that is caused by the need for approval of others. It discusses the scrutiny of her work by those she once respected and looked up to, who now begin to express their doubts of her capabilities. But the power Emaan exhibits and the confidence she conveys about her musical breakthrough is palpable. "Voices" for me, is a representation of the highs and lows that every musician goes through.
One of the problems I've personally faced is being true to myself and my stories and receiving backlash or plain disapproval for others. You guys may have seen a recent video release of my original song, HMU posted on Sofar Boston's Youtube page. I had been dreaming on being featured on that Youtube channel for years, but the comments I received were a little more than disappointing. They were truly upsetting. I can handle people disagreeing with me or my views, but coming at my character and integrity was too much for me. Calling my lyrics "trash" because they were sexually suggestive is not constructive, its just harsh. And as I told my family...
"I can't help that families and kids watch and view my stuff. My content is true to me. And is something I feel strongly about. The subject was really important to me as a woman who is constantly used as an object in raps and song written by men. I wanted to write about my sexuality and to confirm that, yes I am a symbol of sex but because I choose to be, not because some boy sees me as such. There haven been so many women in my life who really feel every word and internalize and appreciate it."
This is true to me and this is how I feel. Some people might not agree or like it but that's alright. I'm never going to stop making my music because of it. The only person who could possibly get in my way, is myself, and that's something I'm working on.
So here are some tips that I've been practicing for myself that will help you when you begin to doubt your own capabilities.
-REMEMBER WHY YOU BEGAN TO DO WHAT YOU DO. WHY IT EVER MADE YOU SMILE.
-YOUR ART IS A PIECE OF YOU SO RESPECT YOURSELF AS MUCH AS YOU WOULD RESPECT A RELIC IN A MUSEUM
-SOME PEOPLE WON'T ALWAYS LIKE YOUR WORK AND THAT'S OK.
-DOUBT IS A PART OF THE PROCESS. LIKE CHURNING MILK WHEN MAKING BUTTER.
-WHATEVER YOU'RE DOING, YOU'RE DOING SOMETHING. AND THAT IS ENOUGH.
-IT'S OK TO TAKE A BREAK THOUGH. IT HELPS TO HEAL.
The Universe took its time on you
crafted you precisely
so you could offer the world
something distinct from everyone else
so when you doubt
how you were created
you doubt an energy greater than both of us